Dearest group member,

You are so lucky that we are working online because if you would have told me in person that all pregnant American women are educated, I would have slapped you.

A few questions that would probably get me in trouble:

1. Homeless people don't have sex?

2. All families living in poverty eat a balanced diet?

3. You think that having a healthy child has NO CONNECTION to someone's socioeconomic status?

4. Do you even know what socioeconomic means?

Fun fact: Having three kids doesn't make you an expert, just irresponsible.

If you don't like feminism, antipornography, or the word "fuck" you should read this

Stopping big corporations from their funding and revenue feels unrealistic to me. The pornography industry is a multi-million dollar bank role, how fast and how long will we have to put pressure on the big companies before there is change? I don't foresee that anyone will be able to take down an industry that has become so big and powerful across the world. It has men hooked, investors are cashing in, and women are trying to live up to the porn stars that their significant others are getting off to. Everyone is involved, and I can protest Video-entertainment-dvd-blue ray-gaming Mart and its affiliates, but that will only effect, what, not even ten bucks of the money made from porn? A CEO in the technology world could take her company and refuse to market any affiliation of the porn industry, but she will take her empire, her employees, and her investors out in the same way that Sony tanked Betamax. So if I can't do anything and CEO Bigbucks can't do anything, then let's focus on something we can do. Focus on the women. How do we change the way a woman perceives herself? If a man goes home to his wife every day and she isn't laying on the kitchen table with just bologna covering her bits, then she isn't justifying the way pornography portrays her: as a meat loving housewife. Women cannot define their sexuality as the way they see sexy in magazines, on television, and in the porn their husbands watch. It is not okay for a woman to believe that to seduce her husband she has to conform to all of the bologna.

I watched a Gail Dines lecture from her website, I don't know if it was "Pornography and Pop Culture", but something that she said triggered such a strong, shameful feeling in me that it inspired me to go off on this rampage. All she said was "Fuck me" and I went into a complete mental overhaul of the image I have built for myself. Fuck me shoes, fuck me jeans. My initial thought was, what the Hell happened to my sophisticated, classy wardrobe? When really, I don't wear outlandish outfits from the lingerie shop at all, but I found myself realizing that pornography and media sexual portrayal made me feel like to be sexy and appealing, this is the way I have to stereotype myself. I could have on my most decent and modest funeral clothes, but I would still be wearing my "fuck me" shape wear. It's the way that I, personally, classify what I wear. I don't believe that other people are thinking, "Oh, she is wearing her 'fuck me' pearls to work today," it's all in my screwed up perception of reality. Believe me, I just had this realization today and I will probably wear trash bags for the next five years just to deprogram myself. Who told me that this is how I should think? The magazines that I've been devouring since middle school. Television personalities definitely aren't calling things "fuck me" but they are definitely wearing the same things that I see in those magazines. I built myself a shrine of those damn identity traps, and it feels JUST AS BAD as the men that devour Playboy, Penthouse, and Hustler. Young, developing women are viewing the exact same ideologies that I did growing up, except there are a few articles nowadays about how plus size women can look sexy. Good for them, but girls are still going to grow into their independent style with stupid phrases like "fuck me pumps". When in actuality, to purchase a legitimate "fuck me pump", one would have to go to Sex World and get a pair of seven inch, see through, platforms. Seven inch, see through, platform. That's what my next door neighbor's deck looks like...

Someone correct me if they think I've got the wrong idea, but this feels fucked up, not "fuck me". I had this self evaluating experience today, and I realized that I have done exactly what I have been programmed to do. It is a terrible feeling. These magazines, Cosmopolitian specifically, are they written to train young girls to act like raunchy porn stars? Really? When Gail Dines says "soft core has migrated into pop culture" is this what she is talking about? "His burning sex need, sex positions, seduce him, sex during your period, sex poll, sex tips from guys (sizzling, sinful, and surprising things they're craving now), look so sexy, girl traits no man can resist, orgasm guaranteed, sex up your eyes..." FOR WHO? Who are we sexing up our eyes for? Definitely not ourselves because on the same page it says "speak his sex language". I used to love reading my monthly Cosmo. My sex magazine. But I never thought of it as a sex magazine. It wasn't until now, at 20 years old, that I realize what Cosmopolitian really is. A 15 year old should not be able to purchase a sex object training guide before they can hold a legitimate paying job or drive a car. Let's shop around for a more supportive magazine... something where we can learn to cook for our men instead of fuck for them... Or maybe the cover celebrities who young women look up to can put their clothes back on and support their fellow females. Look at Reese Witherspoon, have you seen her in her underwear lately? No, she is a big supporter of Avon's empowerment movement. Reese Witherspoon does not show up on the cover of Cosmo anymore, and I wonder why... hah.

What I'm reading right now...

My book list does nothing except for grow. Every once in awhile I'll share the literature that I've become interested in, whether I've read them yet or not.

My Top 10 List

1. Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

2. Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search For Everything Across Italy, India, and Indonesia by Elizabeth Gilbert

3. Stiff:: The Curious Life of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach

4. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult

5. Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

6. Three Cups of Tea: One Man's Mission to Promote Peace One School at a Time by Greg Mortenson

Stones into Schools: Promoting Peace With Books, Not Bombs, in Pakistan and Afghanistan by Greg Mortenson (Who also wrote Three Cups of Tea: One Man's Mission to Promote Peace One School at a Time)

The Overacheivers: The Secret Life of Driven Kids by Alexandra Robbins (Who also wrote Pledged: The Secret Life of Sororities)

Fast Food Nation: The Dark Side of the American Meal by Eric Schlosser. *This book was also made into a film in 2006 if you don't want to read the book*

A Long Way Gone: Memoir of a Boy Soldier by Ismael Beah


Loose Girl: A Memoir of Promiscuity by Kerry Cohen


Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search For Everything Across Italy, India, and Indonesia by Elizabeth Gilbert. *Also being made into a film with Julia Roberts to be released in 2010*


We Wish to Inform You that Tomorrow We Will Be Killed With Our Families: Stories from Rwanda by Philip Gourevitch


Born on a Blue Day: Inside the Extraordinary Mind of an Autistic Savant by Daniel Tammet


The Bookseller of Kabul by Asne Seierstad


Into the Wild by Jon Krakauer


The Omnivore's Dilemma: The Natural History of Four Meals by Michael Pollan


Look Me in the Eye: My Life with Asperger's by John Elder Robison


As We Forgive: Stories of Reconciliation from Rwanda by Catherine Claire Larson


Kabul Beauty School: An American Woman Goes Behind the Veil by Deborah Rodriquez


Bastard Out of Carolina by Dorothy Allison


Push by Sapphire


Leave it to Me by Bharati Mukherjee


Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov


Veil of Roses by Laura Fitzgerald


I am Nujood, Age 10 and Divorced by Nujood Ali with Delphine Minoui


Driving with Dead People by Monica Holloway


Stiff: The Curious Life of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach


The Memory Keepers Daughter by Kim Edwards


My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult


Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden *Also, my favorite movie


Candy Girl: A Year in the Life of an Unlikely Stripper by Diablo Cody (This is based out of Minneapolis!)


Confessions of a Park Avenue Plastic Surgeon by Cap Lesense


The Spirit Catches You and You Fall Down by Anne Fadiman


Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom


Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom


For One More Day by Mitch Albom

Geisha, A Memoir by Mineko Iwasaki

Promise Me: How a Sister's Love Launched the Global Movement to End Breast Cancer by Nancy Brinker *This book immediately catapulted itself into my Top 5.

The New York Regional Norman Singles Halloween Dance by Elna Baker

The Boy Who Harnessed the Wind by William Kamkwamba and Bryan Mealer

Lit by Mary Karr

Cherries in Winter by Suzanne Colon

First, You Cry by Betty Rollin

Dear Karen,

From what I gather you are the dean of students at MCTC. I believe that you will be able to assist me in this little problem that I have. Come to think of it..I have a lot of problems with MCTC, but this one is really inhibiting my ability to learn. In recent weeks I have become overly violent while maneuvering my vehicle through an over packed parking ramp only to find myself being directed to shove my car into a makeshift parking space. I feel like I'm being asked to stand naked in the middle of an intersection. My car normally ends up sticking dangerously far out into the aisle. I'm waiting for ghetto fabulous to clip off a side mirror or mistake my car for a speed bump.

Today will be the third day in a row that I have missed my college algebra class. Luckily, attendance does not effect my grade, but I do feel like I'm 6,000 dollars in debt for no reason. Some people that attend MCTC may be compelled to stockpile quarters in their vehicles, but I do not know where to find the ATM that ejects such denominations. I ran out of sticky chump change early last week, and I do not fancy a parking ticket unless all fines are covered under the handbook's "we suck" clause.

I would be happy to take alternative transportation to class, but I left my broom at Hogwarts when they threw me out. My second option would be Metro Transit, but as we all know, smelly bike riders take the bus at this time of year and no one likes people who tuck their pants into their socks.

My third option would be to take a cab, but they all have a picture of my face on their scanners. I'm not allowed to ride with Suburban or Blue and White taxis because I have space issues. I don't handle boundaries very well and cabbies get nervous when I put the front seat back and lay on my stomach. What can I say? I get car sick and they don't carry barf bags.

My last legitimate option would be to get to school at 5 A.M. and try to park my car in the skyway, but that is just absurd. It is common knowledge that only Japanese brand cars know how to walk up stairs.

Other less reasonable reasons include:
-My horse has an aversion to traffic laws.
-My motor scooter was designed in the 70's. It's fueled with bong water, but marijuana is illegal and impossible to find anywhere in Minneapolis. Maybe if we lived in Pasadena.
And finally,
-My boyfriend doesn't let me ride him all over town...

In conclusion,
After all of this audacious rambling I would like to request that MCTC officials regulate the influx of parking permits, monitoring the people coming in and out. No parking permit, no entry. I, as an outstanding student, have reserved myself a parking spot whether it is on the roof or in the farthest corner of the basement. My permit is updated and fully accessible. It hangs proudly on my rearview mirror, taunting the face of law enforcement when they chide me for having objects obstruction my view of the road.

If parking continues to be a hassle for the parking attendants to control, I will be happy to take matters into my own hands. My louisville slugger and I would be honored to go around and smash the back window of every car with last years parking permit, or none at all. Double parked vehicles will also find that both side mirrors will be missing. I feel that these measures will make the parking attendants job much easier, as the smashed widow should be a clear indicator that the owner of said vehicle is abusing their parking privileges.

With love,

Inmate 00314348

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You can be whatever you want to be when you grow up, but don't be a fool.